Mell's sweet sixteen

Everyone knows that moment when you have everything planned good and then..all of the sudden the most important part goes wrong. Yup, happy birthday.
I wanted to throw ahuge party (well, huge..100 people max) and I'd split the bills with a friend of mine. So first of all I've found a cheap and good place for the party. Then I managed to get 75 euros discount for the place I'm hiring. And yes, here it is. My friend couldn't fix the money..
DSKGHDLSCVHJGHV. I still love him, though. Anyways, I've found another way to pay it anyways so that's another problem that is solved.
The other last and little problem is; Guests.
I reaaaally hope a lot of people will come. I've invited a 102 people and it would mean a lot to me if this b-day party would rock. But we'll see. It's next week so enough time to relax and plan it all out.
At least my closest friends will be there so I gotta stop worrying.

& yes, I've posted that a week for my b-day party. & it was awesome, seriously ! I must say that I had the time of my life; Everyone enjoyed it and lots of people had a great time. I also got lots of gifts and the best gift was Misha, my cat <3 My friends gave it to me inc. the food and toys. This was a great ending of January. It's now the day before Valentinesday [Read; Foreveralone-day] and I'm gonna spend my time eating candy and sleep all day, mwhehe. But this isn't the time to slack off & do nothing. It's time for me to do something with my 'talents'. I'm thinking of doing auditions for something but I don't know what. We'll see ! Toodles & R.I.P. Whitney Houston.

Hello 2012 !

So it's almost 12pm here in The Netherlands and I'm having a blast :] ! I must say that 2011 was a good year. It was perfect but I've learned a lot and had lots of fun! I've met a lot of people who I'll be taking to 2012 as my friend. I've cried,laughed & acted my ass off this year.
Oh,I guess we all got some new resolutions in mind & here are mine;
Mel's gonna;


-Do what she loves
-Act & sing more
-Blog more
-Get a job xD
-Have better grades [They're not terrible but you can't call 'em straigh A's either]
 -Have fun & live life

And I wish you a brilliant,healthy, awesome and great newyear where ever you may be right now <3.
Gelukkig nieuwjaar !

Cheers to 2012!

-Mell.


http://www.kaartje2go.nl/nieuwjaarskaarten/patchy-rh-happy--2012 <- Link to this card.

I'll be okay, yes today.

I always listen to their stories. They don't. I'm trying my best to give them advice and hide my own pain...They don't notice. I'm always the one they run to when they're hurt or when they have no one to nag to. They talk about how bad their lives are, just because their boyfriends didn't call or because they didn't have enough sleep that day. I always fall for the ones who don't like me back. I sometimes lay awake all night just because I'm afraid. Afraid of who?
No one. I've learned myself to be afraid. Of nothing. To be aware of everything so pain will be avoided. I hate pain. Broken hearts. Liars.Bad hairdays.
I love listening to stories of others though. But I love being listened to as well.
But I'll be okay, yes today, yes today.  Here's a smileyface to confirm it (: !
Oh, and watch this <3. Whenever you're down,look up & smile. You'll be okay as well.

I feel like partying!

LOL JK, I feel sick and miserable.
-Checks Hyves mail- Nothin' ugh -__-
Guess I'm gonna watch Dance Flick with my  buddd Maya (Via bbm), go on Girlscene, read some horscopes with some nice strawberry tea and enjoy my fridaynight. Yup, my lovely, non-partying, boyfriendless,lazy, yet close to perfect fridaynight.<3.

Let us be pretty.

Let me be happy.

Mel is back.

melskelovesya.blogspot.com
Hmm, gotta change that.It's been a year now & I miss having my own space aka my blog. Its not much but sometimes it's better to write down your memories and thoughts. I've been writing a lot lately and no one has been noticing it. I usually type a whole story on my blackberry and delete it 'cause I'm afraid people will read it.
I don't have nothing to hide, really. I just feel so misunderstood and different..
So lemme write about the last few months.
I didn't change a lot but then again I did. I've became more open and social. I was the girl who was afraid of making a facebook-account for no reason. I was the girl who didn't do anything with her passion for writing,acting and singing. Well, I now post stories online, got in the school acting-club and bought a guitar and started learning it all by myself. That didn't change. I stayed the independent Mel who's too stubborn to listen, the guy-ish Mel who bites her nails instead of giving it a nice manicure. The awkard Mel. I was always one of the guys. Sometimes I do wish I've had a best female friend but yeah, I'm glad with my ''team'', They mean the world to me. I play soccer with them, go to the library with them and I can talk with them about other guys. I mean, how cool is that?
I still believe in Karma. But Karma doesn't believe in me. When I started acting again I felt like a whole new person. I've become friends with lots of people from my school and other schools as well. I love that feeling when I'm on stage, doing my thing.
I get a lot of compliments but I stay humble. I'm still pretty shy. But when I'm on the stage, that shy Mel is gone.
Yesyesyes, I've had a few crushes lately. Well, (only) two. The first one was a mistake. A stupid mistake.
 I ALMOST fell in love with aguy who didnt like me, but he liked playing the ''how many girls can I get''game. He eventually went for the prettiest girl. The girl with the nice smile,great personality and beautiful hair. Byebye self-esteem.
But do you know the phrase ''You'll forget love when you'll find new love''? (or something like that)
It felt like a deed of Karma but on the Eenakterfestival (A festival with 9 schools who each have an act . The best play will win a trophy)  I've met a guy. A really nice one. Even when his school didn't play that day he still showed up to see the other plays. Just like me. I didn't talk to him a lot (Cause I'm a fuckin'pussy) and I regret but soon I'll type the details out when I'm not lazy.

In brief: A lot has happened and I'm glad they did happen. I still believe in fate so who knows what'll happen next. I gotta stay positive and gain more confidence. I hope things will work out for me. I love life even though it's a real bitch.
-Outcast.